27 January 2014

Never let anyone close enough to hurt you

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This week is hectic as hell. TONS of project rushing us to complete before CNY and Im awaiting so many sleepless night. Eyebags gonna worsen for CNY -_- Also, been shopping for CNY clothes consecutively 3 weeks and I FINALLY settled a few of it.
I can't wait to eat pineapple tarts and which leads to... gaining weightzzz. I really tell myself to EAT CLEAN, but I fail. TERRIBLY.

So a few people say me and Bernard look really alike and we look like "SIBLINGS". OMG NOOO! LOL that's one of the "ouch" comments but then again.. Yea maybe I agree. My boyfriend seriously looks like a girl and has girl's features, esp his eyes with his long eyelashes. There's once I took selfie with him and oh great lord, if I'm a stranger I might think he's a butch. LOL. I even went to line stickers to modify him with long hair and make up. Chio max.

Ignore my tired face
So I manage to get out a little of my comfort zone and talk with other girls in my class. As in, I did talk but I am always so quiet and awkward that the conversation ends in minutes. Really had fun with them thou.

I didn't exactly change clique and clique is seriously a strong word to use. Tbh, I don't exactly have a clique in poly but I have a group of really good friends and I think's that's really good enough for me. Clique is just a really big term to use and in my life currently, my favorite comfortable clique would always be "scholars".
Ok, if clique meant a group of friends I associate and in poly yes, KFC are my clique in poly because they are basically the people I hang out with in school. And I do enjoy their presence, but its just me, I haven't open up yet and I'm not ready to. It takes time, for me. A hell lot of time. I'm just fucking insecure.
And all I'm good at is pushing people away.
Ugh, give me a break. Can I just live my poly life in peace cause this keyboard warrior is just.. just.. BULL FUCKING SHIT.

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