Accepting the love I think I deserve

I learnt to accept things more now and I don't know if it's the best solution but I guess I should just accept and take it all in.
There's no use crying or brooding over those matters.
I accept how people are gonna treat or think of me because at the end of the day, I have to stay true to myself and continuing trying to be the best I can be and not try to conform myself and be someone who I am not.

But I gotta admit, there are times I'm very sick and tired of bullshit and tears came and I want to give up but I can't. I have to continue struggling and fighting to get through it.

I know I'm not capable enough and it sucks. I felt like a total loser most of the times and being rejected so many times because I just wasn't good enough.
I realised how incapable I really am, I thought I was good at this thing but I wasn't at all.
It sucks to realize you are actually still in the bottom of the pit when you thought you were high enough.
It really sucks to feel useless and not competent at all. I don't even know how to work on it.

I'm trying hard to step out of my comfort zone but I don't even feel myself if I do that. I really have to learn some things. I don't know how to contribute or work well or even try to be capable to be recognized or smth. 

and then I come across this ..