Who to trust

So its nearing poly (actually the freshmen thing is tomorrow) and my holidays are officially going to be over. Although there are days whereby i wish poly could start so i have something to do everyday, but after well... hmmm.. i really dont want it to start. I really hope my life would every day be a holiday. Albeit its like Im living my life aimlessly but i like. LOL. I mean there's literally no stress, I meet who I want and do what I like, I stay awake no matter how late it is and dont have to worry if i have enough sleep the next day or if i have enough time to complete my task. I think the only trouble thing i have during the holiday is how to finish and decorate my friend's birthday cards nicely. I just afraid i have to deal with dramas and trust me, thats one of the last thing i want to deal in my life.
This shall be the longest shiokest holiday that Im going to miss. I doubt there will be another 6 months of holiday like this. Unless you retire but Im talking about teenage life Im having.

BUT... ON THE BRIGHT SIDE, at least i have someone i know in the same class as me which is kaiyeow. Conor chinsiang joseph all said im lucky cause he is a real entertainer. HAHAH. I shall not be such an awkward turtle or some anti social girl here because... Jiamin is in diff class as me.... IM NOT EVEN IN THE BUDDY CLASS WITH HER. fts. But our love will never die for each other lah. #gay

Im not really anti social one la -_- I only go crazy when im with someone whom im comfortable with or i feel you wouldnt judge me, obviously i would go all out for you. Its just... alright, I AM hard to mix with, in the starting. Cause my face is just so anti i guess. wth. PRETTY FACE ALWAYS WIN.
Its just no one will really understand, ever since the started of sec life it had been really hard to find close friends, friends who really won't judge. So im just afraid of poly because Im scared if I'm able to handle situations well if some thing cocked up. OH FML.
I SHOULDNT BE BLOGGING HOW WEAK I AM.

Ok so, every since i got back up to my feet, she's still the girl i was able to explain how i really feel and dont have to really put into words so that she will get how i'm feeling. I can bawl my eyes out infront of her.

Gonna miss her so much since we are diff poly -_-

BTW I COMPLETED PRETTY LITTLE LIARS SEASON 3 LIKE FINALLY. AND FTS, I HATE THIS FEELING, BECAUSE ITS LIKE I HAVE TO WAIT ANOTHER 3 MONTHS TILL THE NEXT SEASON IS RELEASED, AND I CANT EVEN HANDLE THIS TENSION.
ITS LIKE... WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO WITH MY LIFE NOW!?I WANT THE GIRLS TO FASTER KNOW WHO A IS, BECAUSE THIS IS SO WEIRD, HOW CAN A MAKE THEM TRAP IN THE FIRE AND SAVE THEM AGAIN? You mean fake alison hasnt dead but it said it was dead in the books what?!! WHO SABO TOBY?!? OH AND LUCKY TOBY DIDNT DIE I TELL YOU. SO LUCKY. I THOUGHT I WAS GONNA CRY BECAUSE THIS HANDSOME DUDE DIED. I THOUGHT I ALMOST DIED.
OH AND IS MONA EVEN GOOD OR BAD OR NEUTRAL?!
 HAHAHA ENOUGH OF THIS FANDOM.
I think my bf and friends would think :
normal people : watch 1 episode a day
me: try to watch one season per day

Pardon B, he don't know how to be good with camera. He looks so gay in it. But i still love him la because he is just the guy that taylor swift sings in those HAPPY songs.
Gonna miss him too, because i would have lesser time to see him either.
shall blog when my poly life officially start. ciao