Have u ever felt so ugly that you thought of staying at home for therest of your life

Went to town yesterday with my girls. Probably my "last" shopping trip before my O'levels. I swear after O's i will do hell lot of things that I havent tried out. Hiking, ice-skating, work(lol), Genting, Kukup, Wcp, USS with cuties. And ton again at sentosa ECP and marina barrage, www, and running man everyday, LOL. Ok thats a lot.

Had dinner at Yoshinoya after that.

There were damn many clothes I wanna get especially in New Look and Topshop but the shirts just disappoint me. The denim jacket or smth cost up to $76! Have to wait till im working after O's and i swear im gonna spam.Bought quite a few pretty dresses but thats the thing about dresses.. I dont know when i will really wear it. The dresses are "high-low" so.. erm ya. Nevermind shall wear it whenever i can. LOL.

The inferiority came kicking in whenever i go town. The girls are just god damn skinny and pretty. Seriously just wanna go do some surgery when i grow up and got the $! Im not trying to get attention but they just dont understand how you face yourself in the mirror and feel demoralized. And our mind are like "hah, who will love you" "if only my nose is sharper, eyes are prettier, high cheekbones, taller, skinnier, nicer jawline, smaller face, no eyebags, lovely hair, if only im not ugly" I know there are other people who are more unfortunate than me etc but c'mon. If you know what comments people made, try not being affected.Some boys words are just so hurting, they may take it as a joke but seriously? Ok nevermind, they are still boys. Oh, so to one of them, have you taste your own medicine yet? are you feeling how we felt when you comment non stop?