Siew Hui

I'm so tired. I swear my eyes are so heavy and if I focus on sleeping, I would have been in a coma by now.
But it's these nights that insist on keeping me wide awake.
Haunting every time.

The mistakes that I did
The past
The what ifs
"Why didn't I"

What person am I..
How to become "that" person that I achieve to be, and be myself at the same time.
(Be kinder, smarter, stop feeling shit, be the girl many likes etc)

Maybe I'm just lonely.
Maybe I'm just paranoid
Maybe I'm just being negative again
Sorry.