It's the day that I can never see you again whenever I want.
I really miss those days whereby I come to B's house and you never ever once failed to greet me by the door.
Your tail wagged and there are even times where you take the energy to jump and pounce onto me.
You are so greedy that you would do almost anything for food and due to food that we grew closer. You're a really smart boy, to the fact that you learnt how to shake hand and bang in such a short period of time, in less than 3 days you half mastered it.
It's funny how you are such a timid boy, fearing the cage so much when just one push of yours with your size could easily knock down it. You're also scared of water and hula-hoops which prevents us from teaching you some tricks. You are so scared that such a big dog of you would run out and hide under a chair.
You are also one mischievous dog that when you are young, you bite and spoiled so many things, be it slippers, plastic bags, furniture.
I really miss those days whereby I come to B's house and you never ever once failed to greet me by the door.
Your tail wagged and there are even times where you take the energy to jump and pounce onto me.
You are so greedy that you would do almost anything for food and due to food that we grew closer. You're a really smart boy, to the fact that you learnt how to shake hand and bang in such a short period of time, in less than 3 days you half mastered it.
It's funny how you are such a timid boy, fearing the cage so much when just one push of yours with your size could easily knock down it. You're also scared of water and hula-hoops which prevents us from teaching you some tricks. You are so scared that such a big dog of you would run out and hide under a chair.
You are also one mischievous dog that when you are young, you bite and spoiled so many things, be it slippers, plastic bags, furniture.
HOWEVER, all of these brought great memories and all these traits will always be remembered by us which brings out the uniqueness in you.
Whenever I came and scratch you, you will eventually lie down or sit down and look up because how shiok it was for me to lay my hands and give your big belly a nice scratch/rub.
I really do see how life was sucked away from you.
How you first start peeing with blood, vomited regularly, how skinny you grew as days past and how huge your appetite lost despite you being such a greedy dog. To know that you didn't eat anything hurts me.
And to slowly see how you didnt have the energy to walk, how you didn't have the energy to come out and greet my by the door breaks my heart.
To saw your bones sticking out of your body and to know you kept crying and us couldn't do anything to help tears me apart, literally.
Whenever I came and scratch you, you will eventually lie down or sit down and look up because how shiok it was for me to lay my hands and give your big belly a nice scratch/rub.
I really do see how life was sucked away from you.
How you first start peeing with blood, vomited regularly, how skinny you grew as days past and how huge your appetite lost despite you being such a greedy dog. To know that you didn't eat anything hurts me.
And to slowly see how you didnt have the energy to walk, how you didn't have the energy to come out and greet my by the door breaks my heart.
To saw your bones sticking out of your body and to know you kept crying and us couldn't do anything to help tears me apart, literally.
To see within 3 days and your time was coming that you slimmed down in a horrifying stage scares me.
You fought really hard, my love. I find it so unfair why is it happening to you and all of us, to see you go at such a young age of only the age of 1 +.
Even doctors find the case being so rare. I usually don't understand when people say #stopcancer #cancershouldntexist and all, till now, I felt it. Cancer really shouldn't exist.
Till now, mentioning how you left still bring tears to my eyes and I have to kept controlling it.
To know that you actually KNEW your time was up and was going somewhere, you went to the stranger's van yourself. You wanted to give up life but you struggled too that's why you panic while in the van even thou you "willingly" got up.
To know that they weren't allowed to travel with you to go to the place where you left earth honestly makes me feel very uncomfortable because I couldn't stop thinking how you felt while you travel there and what was it like when you witness the needle go through you without anyone of us there and what were your last thoughts?
I can't deny that I still couldn't get over you because the fact that you are the very first dog in my life that actually so called "remembers" me and that I managed to teach you the trick "bang" and also the dog I'm the closest with even thou technically you aren't even mine.
You fought really hard, my love. I find it so unfair why is it happening to you and all of us, to see you go at such a young age of only the age of 1 +.
Even doctors find the case being so rare. I usually don't understand when people say #stopcancer #cancershouldntexist and all, till now, I felt it. Cancer really shouldn't exist.
Till now, mentioning how you left still bring tears to my eyes and I have to kept controlling it.
To know that you actually KNEW your time was up and was going somewhere, you went to the stranger's van yourself. You wanted to give up life but you struggled too that's why you panic while in the van even thou you "willingly" got up.
To know that they weren't allowed to travel with you to go to the place where you left earth honestly makes me feel very uncomfortable because I couldn't stop thinking how you felt while you travel there and what was it like when you witness the needle go through you without anyone of us there and what were your last thoughts?
I'm a person that isnt easy to let go of someone and I really have to move on now and am still very hard to accept the existence of the new dog, but of course the new dog is innocent and will take care to the fullest extent.
Shall use this space here to let it all out and cry to fullest of losing you.
Thank you for all the memories. Thank you for the short one year plus. You fought really well.
And it's finally time to say goodbye. I hope you are happy and safe up there, with a large green field and a ball for you to run and play. R.I.P my fellow loyal friend.
Our love will never stop for you, may you be happy up there.
For now, we shall focus on bringing up this new member called "Alpha" :)
Shall use this space here to let it all out and cry to fullest of losing you.
Thank you for all the memories. Thank you for the short one year plus. You fought really well.
And it's finally time to say goodbye. I hope you are happy and safe up there, with a large green field and a ball for you to run and play. R.I.P my fellow loyal friend.
Our love will never stop for you, may you be happy up there.
For now, we shall focus on bringing up this new member called "Alpha" :)
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