God, I hope you hear me

It's already the afternoon and I have been lying on the bed, for the past 2 hours.

I heard terrible news that I wish it was all just a dream.

I don't want to lose you my dear friend. I never saw it coming, never would have expected it. It's aching in my heart. My heart sank just the thought of waking up one day and I have to travel without someone greeting me by the door.

Many thoughts took over me yesterday, even thou you're not really mine but at least technically I've seen you almost every day and you are a really best friend and playmate, you're my this always-hungry-big-cutie. I cannot stop thinking the tricks I've taught you and replaying the video again and again.

And I start replaying those words why others could live up to 10-15 years but yet you have only 1.

And why is it so unfair that it's happening to us when you're our first.

My tears can't stop pouring and I hope you could hang in there. Because, we, will always be rooting for you. 

I love you, my dearest boy, I always do. xx