Finally I have time to update.
Having the holidays now and exams are really a burden. Spotted a lot of mistakes and most of it I should just take a gun and shoot myself at it. I can actually lost a 12 marks qn.
I have millions of activities in my mind which concerns... cash... and.. the right company.. which... I don't really really have a right one except B and scholars but they have their own plans too.
a little pathetic huh.. haha.
But I'm okay, I mean I have time for PLL!!!! Caught up all the episodes I've missed.
HOW CAN ANYONE NOT LIKE PLL. OMG EVERY EPISODE MAKES ME FEEL SO CREEP OUT AND CURIOUS AND JUST GO ON TO THE NEXT EPISODE.
I can also catch up with running man. Heh heh.
Oh I played with photoshop and illustrator. Oh my god and I actually did the header. LOL. Photoshop is fun its just... a big burden during exams and time consuming for a noob person like me.
You have no idea how accomplished I felt. I also did 2 of the logos using photoshop!! Cause I couldnt find any similar icons with same shape and size -_-
Had ice cream at Udders and my favorite crispy toufu!!! At upper bukit timah. Its awesome!!!
MORE CRAVINGS AND FAVORITE FOOD COMING AND TO SATISFY ME.
Don't be deceived. My arms are much fatter, its the hair that is covering.
Celebrated my bbg 17 bday.
I CAN'T WAIT FOR EVERYONE'S 18th BDAY.
LOL. Look at his faces. ALL SO GIRLY ESP THE TOP LEFT.
GIVING THAT BIMBO FACE WHICH I WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO SUCCEED IN DOING.
Im here like... sian and he has this always happy face every time.
so korean. And he initiate all the poses. And I feel awkz in doing it, its so not my style. LOL
Happy, Free, Confused, Lonely at the same time, just don't know if it's in the best way yet..
I also realised why, I didn't like to rely my happiness onto someone and definitely VERY affected when people say my life revolves around a few people. (Which is true now)
Because I experienced that and its really scary. When suddenly one day he's not around anymore and all was busy, I felt lost. I have to go through many things on my own, which sucks.
WHAT IF one day things went wrong, people just didn't keep in touch and everyone goes separate ways, lover goes army or so, I will really be alone and I don't have a plan B at all.
So, I'm trying to find many alternatives now because past is repeating but I'm just stuck here. I cannot expect myself to stick with these few people forever and ever. I need new people.
What I mean is, yes, they are still gonna be my bff, sis, bros but I have to have more friends.
Tbh, I don't have many friends or was never a social butterfly in sec school.
I only stick to the guys in my class and 3 to 5 girls (yes, 3 to 5 GIRLS which I never really hang out with them anymore because we all have our own closer friends) but when im out of school i go back to the scholars. My life really only revolves around them. Even till now.
Everyone now has like "oh I have pri sch clique, sec sch clique, poly clique, cca clique" which they will REALLY hang out with them and all.
Me? erm, I have one and only scholars which I feel comfortable with them. & when they are busy I'm just sitting here in my bed the whole day.
But don't worry, I'm still fine. I'm okay. The only sad part is when I see everyone having a great company while I'm just.. here, feeling extremely bored in this stupid town
I'm in the stage of less than happy but not that sad. I'm still contented the way it is. It just makes me ponder about how things going on in my life right now and if I should make any changes....
I question myself for the difference in me and others.. why is things the way it is and I only come out with one factor... maybe I'm really unlikable or there's smth wrong with me. THIS NEEDS TO CHANGE
ok bye. xx
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