HEROES CAMP

Back to this little space.
Many things happen recently and some are just really great.
I went to spbp mentoring (heroes) camp on 23-25th. It was the bomb. I really enjoyed it and tbh, its the first camp I enjoyed so much in my entire life. Maybe I liked the p5 camp too but there were some setbacks that I didnt get to play some elements and not involved or some shit.
But not for this, everything was just awesome. tbh I planned to leave the camp on the second day because I predicted that I would just hate my presence there, just like how ALL the camps I attend. But somehow I stayed for this. I changed my mind and decided to stay.
Besides, there IS bed there plus air con plus bbq. It doesnt even seem like a camp actually. HAHAH
And one of the games, I literally thought I was in hunger games for a few sec.
Its just so fun cause the best part is... there werent really any some bimbos or some wannabes or smth. Everyone was treated fairly and all.. hehehe
I had an EXTREME lack of sleep, my eyebags were HUGE and I don't look myself in some of the photos taken. Was too ugly. (We had some awesome girls talk session hahahaha)
Nuff said, here are the new friends I found!!!

My group, Thor. (I look horrible.)
YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW SHOCKED WE WERE (even the GLs) WHEN WE HEARD WERE IN THE FIRST POSITION OF HAVING THE SAME POINTS AS CAPTAIN AMERICA.
We came in second cause of the cheer to determine the winner but captain america cheer was really good.
We initially came in last position and points were quite far away from the first and second team (spiderman and iron man) but the last game saved us all.
LOL never underestimate the last team. Nobody wanted to attack us and only aim the first team. 

Closest girls in my group. (Messy hair and omfg to the eyebags i had in all the photos)

Brenda!!!! My first friend in the camp and its fun to have her around :)) xx

Eejia! She's so pretty and so funny on how she first pounced on us and introduce ourselves. We have many things in common and its so funny when she actually suspect me a bisexual just because I stalk girls more and keep telling her how pretty those girls were. LOL. xx

Flora. She's so tall and face complexion is just perf that I feel like a small kid beside her, haha!

Pretty yingshan!!!! So glad to have her in peitong! And have common things to talk about since we're both form the same course hahaha.

This is what happens when u have lack of sleep. Wts happened to my eyes lol. anyway ya, all the closest new girls I talked and open up to.

And the "gentleman", awesome guys. Shenjie, Boonyao, Peiyu, Aston, Benson

Why he so beng like that. WHY. he look so weird here but wtv la. HAHAH

 Carpenter and Cook with B that day. It was SOOOO GOOD and pricey........

I WILL DEFINITELY COME BACK HEHEHE.

I LIVE FOR DESSERTS.

Ok, shall blog again soon for USS stuff. buai!

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My outsides are cool but my insides are blue

Having sore throat with a little swollen eyes and throbbing headache and also feeling giddy and sleepy, but the problem is I already slept the whole day.
Slept till 1pm, lied in bed at 3 and fell asleep again from 4 to 7.30pm. Yet I still want to sleep lol but I don't want my day to end like this so I shall just blog.//

Got back my results and.. I don't know how I should feel about it. Im satisfied because it's above my expectations but I'm not feeling too good about it because I can't really go to local uni if I maintain with this results. But at least... thank god, there's no C's at all.

What happened during the last few days/weeks...

Went back to ZSS during teacher's day. Met many old friends and still most importantly, meeting Miss Lee, for she is always the best teacher I ever met. Not only is she a teacher, she tried to be my friend and I will always be grateful.

This cute innocent pretty girl. Sexy cutie, matching only with a basic tee and high waist, she could make many set their eyes on her. HAHAH ok la, Chinese lessons is always always always awesome with her and hui jun around.
Ikea after that. I tried my best to take good food pictures with my photography skills but it always suck la lol.

Met my part time boyfriends, but I didnt caught the movie yet... will try to catch it soon.

Went to WWW since there's free tickets and all and had our dinner at Just Acia.

cupcakes for you? 

DORA KEIKI. Thanks to b's family for the intro and all.

 Didnt know it was actually doraemon favourite snack (the red bean one) HAHAHA.

Love the cheese flavor the best, and surprisingly, my mum loves it too. Favorite family snack.

Happy three friends. My flower boy very handsome esp without specs.
 Must be a privileged to take picture with him. Chey.
Haha he hates people calling him flower-boy. But I just love to annoy. Owell, name wasn't called for nothing.

Worked with my very first old best friend for only 1 day because I'm just a replacement. Best slackest boring job ever. Great day with him.

 Met eleanor and ate udders and alazhar with her. Miss and love her so much, hehe.

IM SO IN LOVE WITH SCRAPBOOKING NOW. like really.
All my money now shall really stop for shopping and food and buy all those materials from mapletreehouse/paper market.
Will post pictures if I complete my new card techniques and all! hehehe.
So stoked for the year-end holiday with family for Taiwan!

Btw....... I really....... wanna....... eat.........pancakes.......
and hot dog buns from ikea's......... its on my craving list long before the holidays.

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How long

I don't know how long I lied here. 

How long my mind went blank.

How long it takes for that tear to flow out from my eyes.

How long it takes for my mind to start thinking all the insecurities and problems.

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Having a great company

Finally I have time to update.

Having the holidays now and exams are really a burden. Spotted a lot of mistakes and most of it I should just take a gun and shoot myself at it. I can actually lost a 12 marks qn.

I have millions of activities in my mind which concerns... cash... and.. the right company.. which... I don't really really have a right one except B and scholars but they have their own plans too.

a little pathetic huh.. haha.

But I'm okay, I mean I have time for PLL!!!! Caught up all the episodes I've missed.

HOW CAN ANYONE NOT LIKE PLL. OMG EVERY EPISODE MAKES ME FEEL SO CREEP OUT AND CURIOUS AND JUST GO ON TO THE NEXT EPISODE.

I can also catch up with running man. Heh heh.

Oh I played with photoshop and illustrator. Oh my god and I actually did the header. LOL. Photoshop is fun its just... a big burden during exams and time consuming for a noob person like me.

You have no idea how accomplished I felt. I also did 2 of the logos using photoshop!! Cause I couldnt find any similar icons with same shape and size -_-

Had ice cream at Udders and my favorite crispy toufu!!! At upper bukit timah. Its awesome!!!

MORE CRAVINGS AND FAVORITE FOOD COMING AND TO SATISFY ME.

Don't be deceived. My arms are much fatter, its the hair that is covering.

Celebrated my bbg 17 bday.

I CAN'T WAIT FOR EVERYONE'S 18th BDAY.

LOL. Look at his faces. ALL SO GIRLY ESP THE TOP LEFT.

GIVING THAT BIMBO FACE WHICH I WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO SUCCEED IN DOING.

 Im here like... sian and he has this always happy face every time.

 so korean. And he initiate all the poses. And I feel awkz in doing it, its so not my style. LOL

Happy, Free, Confused, Lonely at the same time, just don't know if it's in the best way yet.. 

Hating who I am and how I'm treating this matter and how I give that sickening attitude. Those words and how I express it, it wasnt intentionally, it's just..... (idk, fml)
I also realised why, I didn't like to rely my happiness onto someone and definitely VERY affected when people say my life revolves around a few people. (Which is true now)
Because I experienced that and its really scary. When suddenly one day he's not around anymore and all was busy, I felt lost. I have to go through many things on my own, which sucks.
WHAT IF one day things went wrong, people just didn't keep in touch and everyone goes separate ways, lover goes army or so, I will really be alone and I don't have a plan B at all.
So, I'm trying to find many alternatives now because past is repeating but I'm just stuck here. I cannot expect myself to stick with these few people forever and ever. I need new people.
What I mean is, yes, they are still gonna be my bff, sis, bros but I have to have more friends.
Tbh, I don't have many friends or was never a social butterfly in sec school.
I only stick to the guys in my class and 3 to 5 girls (yes, 3 to 5 GIRLS which I never really hang out with them anymore because we all have our own closer friends) but when im out of school i go back to the scholars. My life really only revolves around them. Even till now.
Everyone now has like "oh I have pri sch clique, sec sch clique, poly clique, cca clique" which they will REALLY hang out with them and all.
Me? erm, I have one and only scholars which I feel comfortable with them. & when they are busy I'm just sitting here in my bed the whole day.
But don't worry, I'm still fine. I'm okay. The only sad part is when I see everyone having a great company while I'm just.. here, feeling extremely bored in this stupid town
I'm in the stage of less than happy but not that sad. I'm still contented the way it is. It just makes me ponder about how things going on in my life right now and if I should make any changes....
I question myself for the difference in me and others.. why is things the way it is and I only come out with one factor... maybe I'm really unlikable or there's smth wrong with me. THIS NEEDS TO CHANGE

ok bye. xx

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